Painful Kiss

November 26, 2007

  

       "I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."

      Need I say more?!?!

     I may look at death as a friendly kiss but seeing someone loose a loved one because of this kiss breaks my heart. But it doesn't make me question it's existence, neither ask when will be my time. For as long as I am living, death does not exist, and if death exist, I do not. So why fear?!?!?

 

hussssh….

November 9, 2007

   husssssh….

if i remember it correctly, i told you last time to SHUT THE F*** UP! i don't believe you took me seriously coz you're still the same b**** that you were before.. so let me tell you one more time..

SHUT….. THE…… F***…… UP….. i meant that..

can't really survive without putting other people in miserable positions eh?!?! well, payback's a bitch…

i was doing my job.. fulfilling what is tasked.. you need not to brag that you have higher authority (being the assistant leader) than us.. you need not to remind us every fuckin' hour to do our job… we are not grade 1 neither morons.. we are professionals.. and we don't like you.. so if commenting about how we do our job is your way of small talk to get us to respect or befriend you, then hell, you're doing it the wrong way.. and jsut so you know.. there IS NO OTHER WAY!!!

if nobody likes you, accpet it.. don't keep pushing yourself for us to like you.. respect, like friendship, is gained.. earned.. not asked… (i have a feeling i told you this before too!) but your skull is pretty thick.. just like your face..

as i was saying, if people doesn't like you, then don't push it.. so what.. you lived 26 years of your life without us, why make a big fuss if you can't have us now?!?! oooh… because you have nobody to torment.. no weaklings to push oaround because in your circle, you are the weakling.. hahaha! sorry.. you're talking to a goddess.. and not just any goddess.. but the one who fights and bites back..

sorry if you are being bullied by your friends.. but that doesn't mean you need to do that to other people to please them.. duh… puhlease… how can you be so stupid to let other people ran your life an dyour decisions.. the thing is, we don't like you.. i don't like you.. i don't make friends with people who doesn't know how to fight for their right because it always end up me fighting for them.. if you're looking for a hero.. that's not me.. i have my own worries..

and just so you know.. i will help you if you want to help yourself..

so again.. stop being pathetic before i loose my nerves and i decide to go down your level to pick your fight… believe me, you don't want that…

pathetic you!

November 7, 2007

  what a blissful morning..

even if it was not a complete 8-hour sleep, it felt so peaceful.. having someone who will watch after you to make sure no harm is to ever touch your skin.. aaaaw…

but alas! need to go to work.. and i hate it.. hmmm… not actually the work, but the people.. not everybody, but a couple or them.. even their presence can ruin the day..

can't stand to hear their voices.. nor see their faces.. just even the thought that we share the same room, or building, makes me sick..

it's very rude of me to say this when i haven't told you why.. so i'll lay it out to you plain and simple..

there are bad tomatoes in every work place.. like it or not, they exist.. these rotten tomatoes are fond of power-playing.. they tend to make your work life miserable even if you are not in connection with them.. those who, no matter you do something right or wrong, would find mistakes in everything you do.. those who make sure you know them, ask you to respect them, and regard themselves as in high authority..

when in reality, they really are nothing.. their salary is the same as yours.. they don't even have the kind of intelligence that would intimidate a person.. what they hold is the length of their stay in the company..
but hellooooooo??!?!?!
length of stay?!?! you cannot measure who you are, inferior or superior, by simply basing on your length of stay.. neither the authority given to you.. yes, you have gained much experience but why the hell are you putting down people? and you are asking for respect? it is not asked but gained..

there are a lot of people better than you.. stayed longer in the company than you.. but why aren't they like you?!?! they have breeding and class.. they know where they stand and they certainly know what kind of person they are, reason why they don't get intimidated.. unlike you.. you are just showing us how pathetic you are..

a piece of advise? if you have nothing good to say.. then shut up!